Former African nation and Arsenal defender Emmanuel Eboue has admitted that his struggles with mental state still continues.
The 36-year-old unfolded on French tv regarding his battle with depression and admitted he had even thought of suicide. In an interview he discovered his issues started when he was suspended by FIFA from all football-related activity for one year.
The ban that was given as a results of failing to pay cash owed to a former agent, led to the termination of his short-run contract at then Premier League facet Sunderland in March 2016. while not an expert club and shattered financially after a bitter and bitter divorce case, he admits he had dangerous thoughts.
“Sometimes i’d lock myself in my area for 3 or four days. simply thinking and asking what’s left. Even today, I still take antidepressants to assist me as a result of it’s still an extended road on behalf of me. however here i’m hoping others would learn from this” Eboue told RMC Sport’s autoimmune disease Vestiaire (The Locker Room) in France.
“Being removed from a competitive soccer pitch for a year was heartrending. I had to coach on my own, and that i was very discredited as a result of folks looked at me differently. Some would say ‘look it’s Eboue, a Uefa Champions League competitor with Arsenal in 2006’, to them it absolutely was shocking.
“Personally, I opt to train within the morning, however there have been those that were coaching at that point. They’d come back to require an image and post it everywhere [social media]. thus I left to coach in the dead of night.”
As things got worse he began to hoodwink his family. “I couldn’t train throughout the day and too embarrassed to remain reception. My youngsters continually asked me when I was going to return to the field, so whenever I stepped out in the morning, I pretended to go to work. .
“Unknown to my youngsters I used to stay outside and return home after they were already in bed. I didn’t need them to question me why they didn’t see me play on tv.”
After a time removed from the media spotlight, to specialize in his recovery, Eboue has recently been a lot of willing to be seen publicly. yet his look on French TV he compete for Arsenal’s Legends facet against a true capital of Spain Legends team last year.
Eboue, who is currently retired from soccer, scored 3 goals in seventy nine appearances for African nation together with at 2 World Cups (2006 and 2010) and 5 continent Cup of countries. At club level he spent eight seasons at Arsenal once getting back from Belgian facet Beveren in 2004, before moving to Turkey in 2011, wherever he won 3 Turkish Super Lig titles and 5 domestic trophies with Galatasaray.